A Time Of Great Change
It has taken a good six weeks of tears and sadness to come to the point of balanced acceptance; that my life has changed forever. My journey began in September 2012 with the help of my twitter and facebook friends we began to put pressure on Dr Reilly regarding the health service cuts, I am a victim of the cuts living in chronic nerve pain, a pain that was being fed with the strongest pain medication on the market. I turned to my online friends and with your help I managed to keep going.
In early December my body began to fail under the pressure of fighting for my rights and eating pain-killers, it was all too much. The multiple sclerosis ravaged may brain and left me a paraplegic. At first all my anger was directed at the government, I was grieving for the loss of who I was and until I had gone through the stages of grief, I could not begin to heal. I took the happy pills for a few weeks but this was a journey that required me to feel, I did not want to accept this I ‘never’ wanted to accept it I was comfortable walking with a stick now I have my 3 wheel scoota! I wont lie and say I woke one morning and it was all wonderful, it is not and never will be. I have cried sat in silence for hours filled with regret for all the stuff I haven’t done I will never fully accept what has happened I am still trying to find balance.
I am getting stronger each day I have good friends and family around me and I will not give up the battle for those of us living in unnecessary pain to save money for the Germans! My life has value I had the time out I needed to take on the fight again, not just for myself but the thousands voiceless Irish left to rot at home alone. My physical ability may have changed but my passion to shout out against the injustice being doled out daily by the HSE is as strong as ever so watch this space.